Everyone is doing well. Ava is growing like a weed. She was 12lbs, 12oz at her two-month check up, so I am assuming she is in the 13 lb. range these days. She is sleeping pretty well at night. She is sleeping in her crib (yay!), and loves sucking her thumb! I'm so happy she found it! Some nights, she sleeps straight through until 6:15 or so, other "mornings", she wakes up around 3, eats, then sleeps til 7. So, I can't complain too much! She is eating a whole lot. She is going to Miss Lisa's with Lucas. Ava eats 3 4oz bottles during the day! So crazy! I'm still trying to nurse, but keeping up with her has become tough with my return to work. So, I had to start supplementing with formula. It makes me sad a little because I was able to nurse exclusively for 4 months with Lucas and it just isn't a possibility this time around.
She is doing a lot more. She smiles and giggles and blows bubbles. She can roll onto her side. She is growing so fast, I can't stand it!
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Lucas is, well... Lucas! He is loving that he is back at daycare. He missed his friends and doing his projects! He is learning letters, numbers, shapes and nursery rhymes! I love it. He talks a mile a minute and loves reenacting scenes from Cars with his toys. I keep trying to record him doing it, but he always catches me and stops! I am determined to get him one of these days because it just cracks me up!
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| He loves playing with Photo Booth on my iPad! |
I'm doing alright. School is crazy. By the time we get home, get everyone fed, get everyone to bed, pump, and make lunches for the next day, it is almost 9:00 and by that point, I am more than ready for bed! We're getting into a schedule, which is always good in my book!
I feel incredibly guilty most of the time, both at school and at home. I fell guilty because, while I was able to spend 4 months at home with Lucas, I was only able to spend (less than) 3 months with Ava. I feel like this year, more than ever, I can't find balance between work and home. I'm "on" from the moment I wake up until the moment my head hits the pillow at night. I'm "Mommy", "Teacher", then "Mommy" again and don't stop from 6:00AM until everything is set for the next day. By the time I get home, I have little patience left, so poor Lucas can't get away with anything (not that he gets away with anything on non-school nights, he just gets away with even LESS on school nights). I put way too much pressure on myself. I want to be a good teacher, because my students deserve that. I want to be a good Mommy, because my children deserve that. Some days, I feel like I am pretty good at both... others I feel like I am pretty lousy at everything. It will get better. We're coming up on Week 4 of school already... it has to get better.
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